Is It All Right to Want to Recover
In the five years since I met my partner, and especially the three and a half since we got married, I have suffered less from depression than at any time in my life. I have far more reason to be happy; I live with someone whom I love and who loves me, and who doesn’t expect me to leave home when I grow up. Also, I know that when I make myself miserable, it makes him miserable, so I have more reason to try to overcome my problems. However, for most of the past week I’ve been suffering worse depression than I have for over a year. For the first time since last Christmas, I woke up in the middle of the night unable to sleep, unable to see anything to hope for, unable to do anything but cry and (eventually) distract myself by playing computer games. A large part of the problem, and one that may be unique to me, is that I can’t quite believe that God doesn’t want me to be depressed. There are a number of books and web articles aimed at Christians facing depression, inclu